Tuesday 15 February 2011
15/02 : Addition isn't as easy as it looks.I thought I'd update since the last post that I'd made about Matthew. Here he is, all of him, broken off into shards. We've gone to five hospitals trying to find him help. The hospital we're currently dealing with isn't sure they can do him any good either. The psychiatrist suggested that we research hospitals in the bigger cities because he doesn't know of any "experts" in the area, nor has he seen it manifest so young. However, when you think about it, most of the multiples split off to deal with the traumas they're going through at home. I would guess that most of them live at home until adulthood, therefore it doesn't get diagnosed until they're older. That's my theory anyway.
Here are the ones I know of or have seen. Only two are ones that I haven't witnessed first hand. If they don't have a name, they haven't introduced themselves or had one of the others introduce them.
- Marcus: He's really smooth, black, and really chill. He talks in a deep voice that sounds almost like Barry White. He's the one that talks to me and tells me not to worry, he's got my back. I hear and see him when drugs are the topic.
- Johnny: He's about six years old and petrified of everything. He rocks back and forth a lot as well as covering his mouth and washing his hands. His voice is small and tiny like you'd expect from a small child. This one comes out when the fear is too strong.
- Scott: He's the most violent of them all. He could set fire to the house and not give a shit. He has no conscience. He is constantly angry, rarely pacified. This one has yet to manifest, but he warns that he is arriving long before he shows up. This one usually will arrive when cornered.
- Steve, The Know-It-All: This one will answer questions in such a manner that there is not a single emotion displayed. Just the facts, ma'am. This one is male, but he refuses to give his name. He knows what every one is doing. I think this one or Marcus are the two I see the most. This one comes out when things need to be simplified and explained in a no-nonsense style. He is the gatekeeper.
- The Woman: She screams at the top of her lungs like she can't hear what you're saying to her. It's usually when the stress level reaches peak. She usually screams questioning words like, "WHAT?! WHO?! WHEN?! WHERE?!" She doesn't know the meaning of the word quiet.
- The Catholic: This one prays and asks for absolution while praying for the demons to leave. The hands make the motions of doing the rosary although there hasn't been any exposure to that religion.
- The Gay Guy: He is the one that performed acts that are normal for a gay male, but not for a heterosexual male. It would not surprise me if this guy, when integrated, came out of the closet all the way. He showed up in sexual situations with males that abused him. I've not seen him, but I've heard him.
- Wayne: He's the shy wallflower that doesn't like people listening to him or looking at him. He warns when the others are coming out to play. He is painfully afraid of people's judgment.
- Jake: He's about three years old. He loves to play with hands and explore the world around him. He is very mischievous. He thinks the middle finger is funny. When he hugs, he hugs tightly with arms around the neck. He rubs his nose into my ear and breathes heavily. He claps his hands and nods or taps in response to questions. His speech is without very much form. He walks like a toddler just getting his bearings.
- The Old Man: I was introduced to him yesterday. His hands are freezing, his breath comes hard, his hands shake with age. His eyes are distant, wide, and haunted. He bows to his brother's wisdom. His voice is husky and doesn't have much power behind the words. He does not keep congruent thoughts.
- The Wise One: He is the older brother of The Old Man. This one is a father figure. He is ancient. He is the one that offers the others advice and guidance, although some of them don't like being bossed around by him. He has lived for so long that he knows all the answers but he rarely talks. I think it was Wayne that told me about him.
- The Girl: She is unafraid to walk up to attractive guys and ask them for a hug. She is light and flighty. She doesn't seem to like the idea that she's with so many guys. She wants to wear makeup, put on dresses, have her nails done. She is more confident than some of the others, but she still only appears briefly.
- Matt 2: This boy is very similar to the one most commonly out, but this one doesn't get embarrassed. He acknowledges that I'm talking to him, but is more sassy and back talks. He is the one that gets angry if he's caught "out".
- The Angry One: This one does nothing but yell out obscenities at things or myself. Although this one clearly can't stand me, neither can this one be without me. If I need to leave the room, it is nearly unforgivable. Defiant, aggressive, possessive, and easily agitated, this alter hasn't given a name.