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23/06 :  15 Things I wish to accomplish this year.

   Each year I select a few things that I wish to focus my attention towards, usually of a self improvement nature. This year is no different, but a lot has happened during my reign as a 42 year old. Now that I've grown a year further towards old age, I'm in pursuit of ideally being me.

Last year I wanted to finish the book I have outlined and hanging on my wall. I have not. I wanted to lose weight for my health, I have but not nearly enough. I have thought for a long time that there must be something that I'm doing wrong. I've already explored the fact that not only do I feel a fear of failure, but I also feel a fear of success. For some reason, my brain believes that I'm happiest at being mediocre. I am not.

Here is a list of 15 things I wish to work on this year. I will be checking them off as I've accomplished them or if I feel satisfied with the outcome.

1. I want to lose a minimum of 50 lbs by my birthday next year.
   
2. I WILL get my book started more than an outline.
   
3. I need to believe that I am worthy of success.
   
4. Failure means that I've just found a way not to do it, I must remember to try again.
   
5. Love is all you need, so I am going to keep on loving my people to the best of my ability.
   
6. I will be kinder to people that are close to me.
   
7. My goal is to run a 5K. Yes, I typed that correctly. I will do it before my next birthday.
   
8. I will find and hold employment.
   
9. I will fix my scooter so I have transportation. (I may need help with this one.)
   
10. I do not have to pretend that I like people that I don't like.
    
11. I will make my marriage a priority.
    
12. My kids are my second priority.
    
13. I must not forget to take care of myself.
    
14. I will offer forgiveness to those who ask for it.
    
15. I will ask forgiveness to those I have wronged.